Bad Mommy

I love my daughter. I love my daughter so much, that I might be just the littlest bit critical of myself as her momma. Most days I feel like she's a pretty basic two year old, and I'm a pretty basic momma, but today was not most days.
Today we were fighting. Today was a battle of wills. Today my two year old was not normal in her activity level, she was freakishly energized. Today I had little to no patience. But, today I did not yell, I did not spank, I did not scold.
I get so aggravated with myself for getting so aggravated with her. I feel like such a bad mommy. Today I promised myself, early in the morning, while I saw my sweet angel still asleep (on my pillow), that I would be patient, kind, loving, calm, and slow to anger. I feel the need to be more understanding of her need to explore and grow and run and be a crazy little two year old! I want to balance the disciplinarian and the fun loving mom sides of myself, and said that today would be my first (re-) attempt at it.
I try so hard! I want to make sure she knows how much Bill and I love her! I want her to have the opportunity to be crazy and have fun, but know how to behave herself as well! I want a balance that seems impossible for a two year old to accomplish.
I feel like there is so much more that goes into parenting than what I am sometimes capable of giving. I want to be super mom. I want the clean house, happy hubby, loving well rounded and well behaved daughter, job I love, friends I can rely on, and enough free time to scrapbook and sew stuff.
I had a picture in my head from when I was little of my mom, she used to sew and cook and clean, pay the bills, teach piano lessons, and more, and she had THREE KIDS!!! Eventually four kids! I felt like I wanted to do what my mom did, but better! I wanted to be able to do everything that she did, but more. I wanted to have my life before kiddos continue on the way it was, and let my kids fit right in.
I feel like I've failed horribly. Days like today make me feel like I am not living up to my standards for myself. Days like today make me wonder why did I think I could do this? Days like today make me feel like a bad mommy.
Tomorrow is another day, however. Tomorrow is the promise of something new. Tomorrow, we will wake up, do it all over again, and hope for the best. Tomorrow I can sluff off the bad mommy of today and hope for more, for better. Each and every day I have to think of the new day, and plan for just that day. I cant let the bad from one day tarnish the pristine slate of the new.
I love my daughter. I love my Rissa-Roo, my Marissa Jeanne-Jelly Bean, my little pooter poo, my girl. I might think I'm a bad mommy sometimes, but she still loves me. Because she still loves me, I will wake up tomorrow and try to be the best mommy that I can be!

Drive Thru Etiquitte for Idiots

The more I work in the drive thru at work, the more I realize that people sometimes might not know the basic etiquette for using it. Either that, or they have a total disregard for it. Whichever the case might be, here's a little reminder!

-When you are greeted at a drive thru, be kind enough to say something back.

-If the person gives you their name, use it!!! People who work in customer service are people! Yes, it might be a shock to you, but we are not robots, drones, or lepers!

-When you pull up to a drive thru, bank or otherwise, please leave your window open. Yes, I realize that we live in Texas and it's hot, and you might not want all the cool air to leak out of your car, but really-it's not going to take too long!

-In order to expedite your visit in a drive thru, please be kind enough to GET OFF THE PHONE! Your phone call might be important, and in this case, please do not enter a drive thru until your urgent, important, life altering phone call is completed.

-Do a favor to the people behind you in line, and the person waiting on you as well, have your shit ready! Don't pull up and ask for a million different things, and then sit and try to figure out what the mess is going on.

-If you don't know how to fill out a form at the bank, or don't know what to order to eat, or don't know how to maneuver your car properly- DO NOT USE A DRIVE THRU!

*I know none of you reading this are in need of this compilation of rules and regulations and basic etiquette for drive thru's....however, if you feel that you might know someone who would benefit from this, please SHARE!!!! Do it as a favor to all of your friends and family who work in customer service.*